Joanadette

We are still in the midst of our MCO 3.0... it is really making me slowly mad.  It seems that I am in need of a good mind detoxing.  I have been wondering aimlessly for awhile now thinking of how what is the next thing I should be doing. Haven't been moving since I have been busy drowning my brain in useless advertisements and distractions with social media. It's as if I can't let myself just for one second ignore opening any of these apps. My company has been generous enough in figuring out ways to keep us motivated during these lockdown times. But it has been a struggle for me to even focus on the simplest or less boring online zoom sessions with my colleagues. I'm guessing my brain is now addicted to social media as a means to just keep myself distracted with just scrolling through posts on Facebook or Instagram for no good reason.  Do you know how much info or should I say useless junk, that your brain continues to absorb while just being online? I've realized i

Lying on my bed this early in the morning and thinking of my death. Seems pretty weird to have this kind of thinking isn't it? I've always have this inkling that I won't live up to a certain age (where we think the average human age should end). Another weird thought, right? But is it weird to think of death at this age? Is it weird to even think of your own death at all?  People think about death all the time for a lot of reasons. Some think about death as an escape from their current life. Some think of death as the next destination of their life. For me, I think of death as a ticking clock. Looking at how many years, weeks, days, hours, minutes and seconds left to live before I complete my work.  I think of death more often then not. But rarely as an escape from my life. Rarely?! Have I thought of escaping this life? Maybe. Once or twice. Could be from the stress of life that led me to think of death that way. But then again, I always end up not thinking about it eventua